BYE(:

Hi yes my blog is DEAD and GONE, and I think i am too lazy to post any more post haha so i decided to remove de blog, also to stop scolding ppl or u noe other stuff, but maybe... Writing journal would be a good idea u noe :D after all, I can write and improve my english so YEAH! :D HAHA... okay

Anyway today after school i felt like a total trash, no offence lorh, but it's like u guys treated me like a trash, u vent anger on me, u drive me crazy, u give me the feeling to study, all this, but u still in the end gave me a really really sad day.


I AM HERE TO TELL U GUYS NOW THAT I AM REALLY TIRED WITH RELATIONSHIPS, WHY IS IT SO HARD TO YOU KNOW IGNORE OTHERS' IMPERFECT? I AM SO FUCKED UP SERIOUSLY, HOPE TO ENJOY TMR WIF THE GIRLS, BUT I REALLY DONT HAVE THE MOOD, I REALLY CRIED I GUESS, AND LIWEI,ATIQAH&ATIEQAH SO SORRY I HOPE I DID NOT U NOE FREAK U GUYS OUT ESPECIALLY LIWEI, HAHA, ANYWAY I AM REALLY GLAD U GUYS WHERE THERE, COZS I REALLY REALLY FELT LIKE BREAKING DOWN FOR A MOMENT REALLY... I DONT KNOW I REALLY WANTED TO CHERISH MY FRIENDS, I GUESS I HAVE TO REALLY REALLY CHERISH THOSE WHO ARE AROUND ME MOST OF THE TIME, AND I REALLY UNDERSTAND HOW ELISHA FELT AS I WAS HANGING OUT WITH KAH LEONG THE LAST TIME ROUND ATIQAH, I REALL DID. HAIZZ ELISHA I AM HERE TO APOLOGIZE I AM REALLY SORRY.
AND SHUYUN IF MY MOUTH REALLY DID OFFENDED U TODAY, I AM REALLY SORRY, COZS I WILL TRY TO DISTANCE MYSELF AWAY, AFTER ALL IT MIGHT BE THE BEST SOLUTION U NEVER NOE. THANKS FOR TRUSTING ME THOUGH I FELT REALLY REALLY BAD. AND I GUESS NOE THAT BEING THE ONLY GUY AROUND GIRLS I REALLY HAVE TO ACCEPT DEFEAT RIGHT? HAHA.. MAYBE IT'S TIME I MIGHT START U NOE DOING THE LONER THING [LOL I FIND IT FUNNY.] ANYWAY I GUESS YEAH IT'S TIME I SWITCH AROUND AND MAKE NEW FRIEND. :)

AND THANKS TO MY PARTNER AZWANI, I GUESS I REALLY DO GETS LOADS OF SURPRISES FROM MY PARTNERS, YOU GUYS WERE GREAT OKAY :) ATIEQAH LAST TIME REALLY HAD ENJOYS THOSE SANJAY TIME IN CLASS OKAY :D
AND JAC, BELLA & AZWANI I HAD ALSO ENJOYED MY ENGLISH LESSONS WITH YOU GUYS MAN!

AND LASTLY BRENDA I GUESS U R THE ONLY ONE I HAVE MOST CONTACT WITH FIND IT WEIRD, BUT TRUE LOL. ANYWAY QIHUA IF U MANAGE TO READ THIS, HI AND I GUESS I REALLY MISS U ACOMPANYING ME WITH STUPID JOKES AND ALSO ALL THOSE LAUGHTER WE HAD SINCE K1, AH.. IT HAS BEEN YEARS I GUESS U ARE THE LONGEST FREN AND ALSO THE ONE WHO DID UNDERSTAND ME BA, AFTER WE LEFT PRI SCH, I GUESS I REALLY DID MISS U AND OUR UNDERWEAR JOKE, SO THIS TEACHER'S DAY WISH TO SEE U AND CRACK SOME JOKES :)

I guess it's time to go and I really had enjoyed and cherish all my friendships, hope it will last forever. BFFs WORX<3 haha so YEAH.

Time really flies so got to go le and it's the end of my last post bye :)

PS: oh btw isn't it nice to end my blog with a 185th post? haha :D

Today
emaths we studied about trigonometry ratios finally man! lol.. was waiting for mdm chang to teach for very long time liao xD
anyway have homework e.g.3 gonna do later, and i tried Chinese just now.. i think i don't really know how to do.. haizz... anyway today manage to play some games at the back of the class wif Atieqah,Atiqah,Liwei,Jac&Shuyun lol. it was fun xD lol i like the telephone line game lol.. liwei keep passing funny funny message xD and atieqah pass the malay message, one of the line from our SYF piece lol. and it ended up to become "Something... blahblahblah" lol i think we totally noe how to screw up our other friends mt. :l anyway... i found out jac is not a good telephone line, cause she always pass wrong message lorh!! me and atiqah.a realise it lorh.. xD anyway... it was fun, but soon after that we went back to do our work. haha...

I guess I manage to enjoy myself a lil. today... hmm..
I am now wonder what Mr.Sim had said just now... I don't think I am scary right? LOL xD I AM OPEN :l

Okay done for now.. really had to go if not i think tmr will sleep in class again, and also tmr must chiong tuition and whatever work i am gonna get tmr!! so ciaos!

ok last day of the week. this week is definitely busy busy lol.
cozs drama took up most the time of the week. DRAMA week i would say lol.
Nxt week not gonna hv drama i think? hope so :D

Okay well... ytd got scolded by mum. wow i am using computer cozs i am slacking :)
eh i am talking to shuyun and munyee okay. and we are like talking about maths project... ok maybe not cozs they added some random topic, but i manage to do a few slides for the powerpoint!
haizz... see must at least scold me one time during the day than dey must be happy, what to do? let them scold lorh.
den dat idiot just keep HUO SHANG JIA YOU lorh. ended up i am so FUCKED UP shutdown my laptop jump into bed, shutdown myself from all those crap and sleep :)
woo.. i felt great cozs i manage to do dat out of so many freaking YEARS! lol.

anyway today suppose to go study wif aravin, did not go cozs well lazy xD haha... so stay at home and rot i would say. anyway going out to get dinner and my MILK ltr. so yeah pretty bored. any1 mind smsing?? oh and i really need to start studying this week, so YEAH!

ALL THE BEST JEROME IF U REALLY CAN START CHANGING YOUR TIME MANAGEMENT.

anyway, hope to have fun tmr in sch. and hope tuesday go home EARLY! woo hoo!

Oh ya friday manage to make i/c with out queue-ing! lolz cozs it was geo lesson and hu cares goes in take our form go to hall no ppl and just do! lol. ltr after all alot of ppl come haha.. so i am like PHEW! no rush man. xD and azlin came during free period! lolz
oh ya we went bball court dey play.. well was tired so did not make myself more tired, cozs ltr got performance ma. so just keep slacking until Mr Leong came! WOAH SCARY! HOD of Maths though he was gonna lecture us, but guess wad NO he said play 5 more minnutes than go back and do our work. we were like okay. xD but u noe.. us do our work?! lolz. anyway so really not long we went off to do our i/c LOL! so yeah... oh i am i remembered falling asleep in chang's class xD she whack me wif de paper on my head i am like what what?! she scolded me lolz. den i am wide awake. but soon she teach abt example26. than there i go again.. getting sleepy again. i guess i really hated maths? cozs I TIRED MY VERY BEST TO LOVE IT OKAY. haizz... i am just not the cut for maths dude. haizz anyway all de best for tmr's phys test, gonna fail again.

hey manage to post! woots! the previous post was posted in sch.. lolzz... so hard to type wif ipod >.< [sorry ppl :l]

ok this whole week is spam by drama, and i hardly do any of my works? or should i say i dont do any, and manage to come on today to do my humans.. haizz 3 facts to wow ppl? how.. hard... anyway found 1 le..

Okay.
Monday.
Nth.. just had session.
Tuesday.
hmm.. manage to do some runs den chiong to the Art House to do our lightings... haizz... and... the stage is REALLY SMALL.
and we end late. so did not manage to do homeworks...
Wednesday.
Yesterday... well.. went to 7-11 to buy Hottie Kraze[sp?] ok.. forget it.. den had session again arh.. so sian we did not hv the ramps with us lorh...

Today:
Basically tmr is our performance and i am really really scared we will have LOADS of problems..
today's session was inform by elfin and alex ytd nite... gosh 3pm to 4++pm..

Atieqah,Atiqah,Elisha&Nasrul did not attend the session.. i am de only one so angry larh i am so FUCKING tired. and now i am FUCKING STUCK WITH AN UGLY PHOTO FOR I/C ALL BECAUSE OF I/C. HAIZZ.. THIS WEEK IS ******** STRESS... HAIZZ... I AM REALLY REALLY REALLY SAD THIS WEEK... DID NOT DO HOMEWORK AND ALMOST WENT TO DO CT WITH TOTALLY NTH IN MIND, THANK GOD MDM CHANG DO A REVISION IF NOT I THINK I ONLY KNOW THE FORMULAR AND NTH ELSE =.= I AM SO GONNA FLUNG MY MATHS CT SO IS AMATHS. HAIZ
OHOHOH! AND NASRUL CAME TO JOIN THE SESSION WEHN WE END QUITE FUNNY, BUT DID NOT HAD THE MOOD TO LAUGH.

okay anyway today..
dead tired did not manage to sleep well last night.
end up reach school just RELAX on the table [lol]
den ended up keep knocking off during all the lessons..[haizz]
well tell the truth, i see alex today i just WALAO SIAN DRAMA LTR lorh =.= haizz i am like so sian wif drama now, and vry vry vry sick with it.. no offence and not trying to offend ppl lorh.

AND TO MAKE THIS CLEAR. I AM NOT THE SCRETARY LE.
SO I AM WONDERING WHAT I AM DOING. AND I REALLY HOPE I COULD CLEAR ALL MY STUFF OFF DRAMA REALLY REALLY.
I JUST FEEL THAT DRAMA IS TAKING ALMOST 2ND HALF OF MY DAY, CAUSING ME NOT HAVING TIME FOR ANYTHING. I AM REALLY REALLY SAD.
AND I DON'T KNOW, BUT I THINK NO ONE WOULD UNDERSTAND, COZS AFTERALL HUMAN ARE SELFISH, AND SO AM I NOW. I HV TO I GUESS, I REALLY HAVE TO IN ORDER TO START PROTECTING MYSELF. I THINK I AM SO.. IDK I AM JUST REALLY REALLY UPSET. I GUESS MY TEENAGE LIFE ISN'T REALLY WORKING OUT WELL.. HMM.. I AM STARTING TO REGRET ON EVERY STEP I HAD TAKE. HAIZZ

am i someone to you?
if i do plz do not use me, cozs i feel so used...
i feel so used and so exhausted from all this think.
i don't know what i am thinking now, and i am really emotionally and physically drained.
idk. i think am losing you know. i am no interst in studies. idk. i am so confused. i really don't know.
but i want to find some1 to talk to, but so many things happens. everything revolves around my friends. problems surfacing.. i am really scared, i don't want to be hurt. i want to just enjoy my life and have fun. its just tat easy, but how how could i really find all this?
there are even ppl not thinking about others, but asking us to put us into their shoes, but the think is did u put urs in ours?
i think i cant catch up with ms chew's lessons now. and i totally catch no ball during lessons.
i feel so dumb and stupid. haizz..
i feel so useless and worthless u noe... seriously like i cant do this and that, but what can i really do?


friends.
who are you?
do you know about my exsistance?
do you know i really want to be friends with you guys, and really hope to have a very very very close relationship wif u like sharing all craps and nonsenses with you, but will u?
will a true friend that i hope that no matters what happen would stand on myself appear?

I would like to ask you questions, and would really like u to think and answer truthfully.

1.Would you stand on my side, if something happen?
2.And did u even trust me from the start?
3.would u share your problems with me?
4.could u stand my irritating attitude, and all negative parts of me?
5.and can i have some love at least? care, concern? that's all i really need.

Haizz..

I have got nth much to say...

Yo! In school now... Ltr v r gonna have drama... Sian! Than need to chiong to ms chew's house...

God! i manage to find this stupid vidoes to make me go LOL! xDD

here is 2 of it.



Lady Gaga[fake] Fierce Factor



LOLz funny Potter.



Parody of Lady Gaga's Just Dance. LOLz! anyway i think i am going off le haha...

i am left alone.